October 6, 2021

11. Being a lightworker

Before I start telling about our journey...

William and I are not affiliated with any organisation of lightworkers. We work from within ourselves, from our souls
Below I share how we experience that

William and I have longed for years that people would heal

Heal physically, heal emotionally

But how would we be able to help?

 

When we started isolating ourselves almost completely a few years ago
we knew for sure, from the inside out, we had to do so
We knew it had to do with our own healing
Later we learned that it also had to do with being a lightworker
We started to work "undercover"
Isolated, just together,
with only a few people we need to have contact with for their own healing
Which people?... our innervoice told us, it was very clear!

Why was it necessary for us as  lightworkers to be isolated for almost 100 percent?
That had to do with a few "problems":

- in the first part of our journey we had to do something my soul still tells me not to write about (maybe later)

- we had a very special job, not known and not understood by the world

- being with other people would cost us a lot of energy, because the wounded parts (we called them "angels") of the people we meet, would talk and scream to our "angels"

- activities that didn't suit us, specially together with other people, would wear us out

So for your own good, it was important:

- to take (more) rest, specially when we felt we needed it (we needed to stop running on in the treadmill)

- to get rid of the people our soul told us (for us it was easier to start in our thoughts with zero people and ask ourself which people we could or needed to contact in the next period)

- to practice listening to our inner voice

- to practice feeling in ourself what our truth was/is, whether the voice we heared was really our innervoice or a wounded voice

- to learn to do only what we felt we should/may do (not what people expected us to do, or what our wounded parts thought was necessary)

- to learn to (only) say or write what we knew from the inside out we had to say or write (without getting cramped)

I'll give you a few examples to see for yourself how you can experience it:

How do you feel (after) being in a supermarket for a while?

Or (after) being in a group, for a birthday or another party?

What does the conversation with different people do to you?

What happens to you when people respond to your tweet or to what you say? Even if the response isn't offensive...

Lightworkers are high sensitive

I myself was so entangled and wounded that I knew I was high sensitive, but didn't feel what my William felt (his sensitivity was more intense then mine)

After healing a lot it is coming back bit by bit now
Recently there were two people at our door.
Absolutely friendly, but what I felt...
so much pain in the one, so much oppression in the other
Because my husband is much stronger in this feeling and listening, I asked him about it
I didn't tell him what I had experienced myself, only whether he had an idea how things were with those people
He came with the same words: oppression (manipulation, intimidation) and with the other the consequences thereof (very wounded)
A great confirmation for me that I'm on the right track!
So: the more you heal, the more you feel from other people
And: the more you heal, the more you hear and feel your own inner self!

What is our purpose of being a lightworker?

Our purpose is to heal people
We know for sure that there are never easy solutions for their problems
Therapeutic words most times entangle and suffocate more than they heal (except when the therapeut speaks from the innervoice)

We need to follow our heart, the voice of our innerself!

What does it look like in practice? What do we need to do?

We can just BE...
while listening to our inner voice (words, impressions, feelings)
What happens "automatically", and will get stronger and stronger, is what we call "radiating"
"Radiating" basically means that our inner light and power flows outwards

In general to all the people around us, but especially to those with whom we make contact

 


This can be done in natural, face to face or over the phone
It can also be done online
Even only being busy with something or someone in our mind, means we are  radiating at that situation or person
Working on a website, like Twitter, means we are radiating to that entire network
And specific, those people we make contact with on sites like Twitter, get an extra "shot" of our soulpower and soullight
It can be mild, it can be intense.
While I was busy typing in the draft about my personal inner healing,
I was "pre-radiating". It happens automatically, I don't have to take any action
I just felt it, knew what it happened
As a result, when I put the report on Twitter, it's tremendously powerful just from the pre-burning alone
So preparing for an action that our soul prompts us to, can be a matter of "pre-radiating", a reinforcement for the action that we will perform afterwards

I already mentioned the word "action" here
Everything we feel coming from our soul,
a certainty that we must say or do something,
we say or do it, if we are also sure we should do it right away, at that moment,
or wait a little longer, until our soul indicates the right moment
It requires a good learning to listen and feel
The right time, the right action, the right words...
They are important!

 

How do we experience the radiating ourselves?
We will feel peoples wounds
Because we radiate our light and power to them, we give away some of our own energy
So it can make us tired for a while
That's why extra rest is so good, even if it's just in a lazy chair for as long as needed 
Even in this our soul is leading, so we listen to ourselves in that too!
We need to be serious with ourselves!

What we can experience at the time of radiating will be different in every situation

By the way, we are radiating 24/7, a sort of basic-radiation... 

When I myself radiate stronger then what I basically do, I often experience:

- a burning sensation in my legs and arms, a kind of strong tingling

- a tension everywhere in my head

- a strong whistling in my ears

- a feeling of restlessness

- sometimes "shooting pains", stings
emotional abdominal pain

This can also happen if we drive past someone 
Our soul knows exactly what everyone around us needs...

By the way, we have an impression of what we feel while radiating:
the more we heal, the less it bothers us
When I look at myself, I notice that I do feel the radiating sensations, but that I usually no longer experience it as painful or annoying.

Today we discovered, rediscovered something new:
A power we have longed for
A power to take away pain from people
We already have set people free and healed them some bits (by radiating, by doing what our soul told us to do)
Emotional healing can be painful, sometimes very painful

The last few months I have had a lot of pain in my one cheek, in my jaw
This afternoon my husband suddenly asked (knowing that I was in pain again): how is the pain?
I looked up in surprise... it's gone!
He said he focused on it, because he got the impression that it would help
And so it did!
I also tried it for myself
After all, the pain in my jaw comes in gusts, and sometimes comes back (less severe than before this afternoon)
Apparently the healing isn't finished there yet
I felt the pain again, and took the time to focus on it
And I kept on doing this, until the underlying emotional wounds had healed and the pain didn't come back anymore

I'm looking forward to see what else we get to experience from this...
Just imagine what soulpower can do for people in this!
Without them knowing what you're doing
They're in pain... and suddenly it's gone! Wow! Amazing!

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