February 2022

17. Overweight and underweight

It has amazed me for years how some people are already gaining weight from the air they breath, so to speak (as it seemed to me) and others can eat themselves full and remain too light

How is that possible?

 

Apparently the proverb "every pound goes through the mouth" is a huge deception!
It is clearly not just a physical problem purely, there is more to it

Another misleading comment is this: Those "fat guys" are emo-eaters, they stuff themselves when they feel emotionally rotten
That in itself is recognizable, but even then it remains a mystery to me, why a lot of those people who are emo-eaters, are not "fat people", but rather "thin ones"

And... diets don't help
I have tried everything, experienced with almost every diet
The one that seemed to help me best for a while was recently dismantled: the low-carb diet is a thing of the past, has found not being effective
What diet to follow?

As far as I'm concerned they can all go out!

Diets go against the deeper desires of a person
A diet, the dietitian or someone on the Internet prohibits products or quantities
Someone else determines an important part of your life...
Result: you get more and more entangled, trapped
And because of that more and more emotionally wounded
And so... the circle is round, in the form of a downward spiral...

 

More and more people say that they have "woke up"
It has everything to do with a process of innerhealing
We go through pain, through sadness, through fear, and from within we heal in that process
It's just too much to explain now, you can found more information on this page of our website: Healing blog

Because I am going through a deep process of emotional healing (a process of inner healing, from within) for a few years now, the number on the scale is also discussed very often

Obesity is one of my major emotional wounds, and most importantly...that's what I learned in this process... it's the result of my emotional wounds
While in the beginning I thought that I had gained weight because I was an emo-eater (but in the meantime wondered why other emo-eaters were too thin), I started to see clearer what the effects of my emotional wounds had been on my body
As emotional wounds healed, some of the physical effects of those wounds began to heal too. My balance has improved, my absurd fatigue is gone
More about this in other sub-pages of my Personal Healing Blog on this website 

 

Meanwhile, I kept wondering how my size would go
When I am completely emotionally healed, should I start dieting again, or would I eventually lose weight "automatically"?

I came to two points, which are truths to me right now (truths are never absolute, they grow with you):

1. emotional healing will reduce the urge to eat (I already notice that, except at times when I go through a process point again, and therefore experience considerable stress)

2. through emotional healing my body will heal more and more, even in the area of ​​being overweight. My body will react differently, no longer accumulate fat

 

To be honest, I expect it to be mainly about the second point, but that the first point will just coexist, as something that (really) doesn't have to do with being overweight or underweight

You are probably now wondering if I have lost weight yet?

Well, at the beginning of the process of innerhealing, we ate a lot of food I seldom eat before, and also way to much. In that period I gained about 15 kilos

Inner healing also causes stress, and that was particularly intense in the first months

I lost some of those kilos again, without doing anything special for it