September 26, 2021

2. My soulmate

The deepest pain after my divorce was the pain of loneliness.
So many years of marriage without relationship, without connection.
The many ways of emotional abuse had been terrible,
but I felt the "abuse" of having no relationship, no connection,
that made the deepest wound...

I'm so glad I can to tell you that wounds can be healed!
My current husband is my real soulmate.
From the beginning of our relationship, I felt very very sure about US
I knew, even while we both were broken people, we were one!

From the beginning my husband had decided, promised himself,
to say nothing to me that would hurt me.
He had made it his purpose to do everything so I would heal from the inside out.

 

Well, he was emotionally wounded himself, but he had practiced to listen to his heart very strongly.
And in every situation he just listened, asking himself:
What will I say?
What will I do?
What does SHE need now?
I knew he lived that way, and I'm so very very grateful he did so.
And most special... it never felt unnatural, I felt love only!
And so... healing started!

Having relationship, connection with my soulmate is very special, very precious to me.
We have connection when we talk, when we touch, when we are silent.
If we hug tightly, it's like flashings of light go from soul to soul.

We are still not 100% healed now,
but I can say: WE ARE ONE!

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