October 9, 2021

12. Only being the best is good enough!

As a result of comments from my mother, from an early age I strived for the highest place, the best grades, to become better than the best
That's why "only being the best is good enough!" became an inner conviction in my life
It felt like a necessity to get recognition, confirmation someday
to ever feel like I mattered...

I like to play games on my tablet sometimes
Games like Sudoku, Bubble shooter, Jigsaw puzzles

Besides just enjoying these games, there was also always this inner drive to be the best, or at least be one of the best, and an inner drive to improve my top score

Recently I noticed that I no longer pay much attention to the score anymore

It dawned on me that this is also a result of inner healing

Just being able to play without rushing myself and have fun with it...
Fantastic!

 

By the way, even more important:

I don't need that recognistion, that confirmation of being good enough anymore

I know deep inside that I matter, that I am who I am and that that's good!

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